I know i haven't put anything on this thing in a while, but it was because i didn't have to. Everything was going so well. It's really my fault though. I guess i shouldn't have left home and my girl. I messed up. I can't be there for her like i'm suppose to be and i believe that's one of the reasons she left me. She's really not happy with me, and she says i don't notice her changing and that she's not my number one. She says that she's always put me above everything else in her life and i haven't done the same for her. the truth is though it's hard, because i love baseball. this time i'm not calling her back though. I care for her so much, sometimes you have to give up the things you love the most for them to be happy. I hope your'e happy with someone else baby. I wish you the best of luck. I'm sorry i didn't notice your changes and that you weren't first. I know your'e going to do well because you work so hard, if anyone deserves it you do.

ps. you did have one thing wrong though i do love you. I understand that i can't be with you but i'll always be here for you.

bye baby, your first love Khorey Ronele Beauford

My last

I guess it's about time for me to update huh!? Well I'm in college and things are going ok and everything. I believe that everything is going to stay that way to. I really have no desire to go out and do the things that i was doing. I don't know i feel really good right now. I hated the way i was acting. I hurt people in ways that i wish never to do again. I don't know how long this is going to last, ( this happy feeling that i have.) I know that i'm going to try to do my best in school and baseball and try not to let any thing get me down. All of the negative things so far that i was doing has stopped. All in all i feel like a better person inside. When everything was happening i used to ask myself what else can go wrong and when is this horrible feeling that i keep doing wrong is going to go away. Well now it's gone and i feel a whole lot better and i think that this feeling is going to last.

I love everybody and i hope that theres no hard feelings about anything.

ya boy khorey.

ps: me and courtney are still having problems but i think that we can work them out, because we are the best of friends and she understands me to a point and i understand her.

Man, I thank whoever sent this to me because i really needed it. My day started out good but ended horrible. I know i don't make the right decisions all the time, but there is some good in me. I thank everyone who keeps me in their prayers and also those who don't because I'm prayin for you.  (any way someone sent this long thing to me.)

Let's see if you send it back. We all know or knew someone like this!!

One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my
class
was walking home from school. His name was Kyle.

It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to
myself,
"Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really
be
a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my
friends
tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran
at
him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he
landed
in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass
about ten feet from him. He looke d up and I saw this terrible sadness
in
his eyes

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled
around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I
handed
him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. " They really should
get
lives.

" He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his
face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it
turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him
before.

He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never
hung out with a private school kid before . We talked all the way
home,
and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.

I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends .
He
said yes.

We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I
liked
him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books
again. I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some
serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! " He just laughed
and
handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends . When we
were
seniors, we began to think
about college.

Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.

I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a
problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a
football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about
being
a nerd.

He had to prepare a speech for graduation I was so glad it wasn't me
having to get up there and speak

Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He
filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates
than I
had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
Today was one of those days.

I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be
great!"

He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and
smiled. " Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through
those
tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a
coach...but mostly your friends...

I am here to tell all of you that being a
friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.

I am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the
first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.

He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have
to
do it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the
unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy
told
us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful
smile.

Not until that moment did I realize it's depth. Never underestimate
the
power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's
life.

For better or for worse. God puts us all in each other's lives to
impact
one another in some way.

Look for the good in others.

You now have two choices, you can:

1) Pass this on to your friends or

2) Delete it and act like it didn't touch your heart.

As you can see, I took choice number 1.
"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble
remembering how to fly."

There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is mystery.

Today is a gift.

It's National Friendship Week. Show your friends how much you care.
Send
this to everyone you consider a FRIEND.

If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a circle of friends.

WHEN YOU RECEIVE THIS LETTER, YOU'RE REQUESTED TO SEND IT TO AT LEAST
10
PEOPLE, INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU.

Ok, so i'm back at school now. Well, i've actually been at school for a while now. Things now are going to be different. I'm sad at one point because the person you say you love is liking someone else, but then again you think maybe all this stuff happened for a reason. You say to yourself, maybe it wasn't love. This is going to be weird. It's strange how you talk to a person for so long and then you just stop. I guess on a lighter note, the semester is almost over. My mom said that i have to get a 3.0 this semester or she's takin my truck away.  That's kinda messed up. The whole ride down here i was thinking about things. Like why is it that every decision i make turns out to be a bad one. This freakin weekend is horrible. I've been reminded hurt, shocked, and reminded of the sad times. My girl broke up with me, my step dad got into a reck on his mortorcycle, and I wore a jacket that had my granmothers funeral pamphlet inside. What the heck has been going on.

It's like things are going to be quite different now. I have no one to yell at and no one to yell at me. I believe my grades are going to come around. I'm being told to move on, but its hard and it's going to take a century of time. You can't move on just like that, who the hell does that. Anyway i know things will look up for me. The only thing i have to do is keep a positive look on life and pray. I need to stop complaining to God though and thank him for what he's given me that will never go against me. My family and my TRUE friends.

I came up with a saying coming down here. "Keep your enemies close, and your friends closer." I guess it's like you already know your enemies are going to stab you in the back, but its your friends, your friends are the one that'll surprise you with their animosity towards you.

From now on things are going to be different. No more people bringing me down. Or if i do go down I'll get up with pride.

This will probably be my last entry so good bye good people. Don't let life get to you down.

Just so you know to. I always loved you and i always will. 

ya boy, Khorey Beauford

This whole weekend was a disasater. I basically screwed up everything to a point where I don't believe there is no repair. But i guess "everything happens for a reason," well atleast that's what everyone else in the whole entire world freakin says. But don't you just hate doing something that you didn't mean to do, or was misunderstood? First of all i'm not a bad person, and i refuse to think so. I guess i have been a bad person in the past, but what i did i didn't mean to do. I was really looking forward to this weekend, and it turned out horrible. Why does everything I touch turn out to be so bad. Well i just wanted to say I am really sorry. Believe me I understand your pain, and you won't have to worry about me anymore. I understand everything, and i believe we were doomed anyway, but couldn't find away to leave each other. Well, I guess this is it, something finally happened. I didn't mean it though, i was trying to do anything. I hate for anyone to think that because i'm not that kind of person. Why would i do something like that, that's not me and you know that. I was knowingly trying to do anything wrong. But if you don't believe that that's ok too; because of everything you've been through and everything. Listen though i won't call anymore, because i know that all ways makes things more difficult, and you don't feel comfortable with those types of people around so i guess this is bye.

BYE...